In our life journey, we will face a lot of ups and downs. For example, we may not be able to get into a good school, we may endure a life threatening disease, or we may experience the loss of our loved ones. Though I had not yet experienced these unfortunate events, I can imagine those people’s sorrow, grieving and mourning. The good news is, you are not alone. You are not alone in facing these distress, God will be with you.
Let’s look at this beautiful passage from Matthew 5:4: “Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.” Literally it means that God will comfort those who mourn. In this context, when you are experiencing some hardship, God is with you, and He is present all the time during the difficult part of your journey. Have faith that the hardship is only a small part of our blessed life, think positive and you will realize that every challenge is now a potential celebration moment between you and God. Doesn’t make sense? See my example.
Yesterday I had been experiencing some bad and worrying emotions because of a sin I had committed. It is not a big sin, but sin is sin, and God’s standard and expectation of us is very high. My mental mind, throughout the afternoon to night time before I sleep, I was filled with worries, horror and a pessimistic emotion that I thought, I was done. And this uneasiness continued in this morning until I woke up at around 11am. And the recovery then happened. I woke up, switched on the music, and all the worries, all the distress were gone. I was in great shape, and I didn’t fear anything at all. But I realized that I had sinned, so I still kept my happy emotion in check, with a mindset of happiness but admitting that I had sinned.
Reflecting on today’s experiences, I realized that God gave me mercy and strength. I had sinned, but God gave me mercy, and gave me strength so that I can proper function today. I did not deserve to have this mercy, because I had sinned, but I am very, very grateful for this experience of worries to recovery, all in two days. I consider today was a date of celebration, not only because I have another idea to write in this blog, but more importantly, I realize that everything, from my worries to recovery, is given by God. Therefore, the unfortunate event, in my mind yesterday, leads to a celebration moment today, because I had gone through the difficult journey, with God. He had healed me of my worries, He had mercy on me and He had done a mental miracle, to me. So the implication is God loves me, but still, I have to remember the fact that I have to be careful of sins, the great weapon of Satan, and to remind myself that if I sinned, I need to repent and ask God for forgiveness.