Monthly Archives: July 2018

Writing: The First Training 27.7.2018

An Image of a newspaper

Are you learning to be a writer? Are you going to study for a journalism degree? Are you looking at various ways to learn how to write? I cannot answer these questions for you, but I can relate my own experiences for you as a reference.

About 30 days ago, I first heard the phrase in a dream talking about a company with its staff having shared a specific attribute, or gift. I did not understand the implications of this phrase at that time, except I thought God was telling me to find a job with a company that has staff with the above-mentioned attribute. But all along I had no idea where to start, and I just have to wait, waiting for God’s guidance and leading. Today finally the question was solved. It is a newspaper company. A newspaper company that is situated in the United States. Is it the will of God that I should apply for a job in this company? For the time being, I do not think so, as my English, as compared to a native person, is not that good and fluent.

Then what should I do, having known this still not-yet-fully-solved will of God? I then think of a usual way to let me get acquainted with this company, I can read first the memoir of the head of this company and another book that tells the same story but written by another author. However, the very surprising thing is that God is telling me not to read these two books, through the Fighting Heart incident, see The Fourth Fighting Heart System 24.7.2018, and a dream today. I believe He is warning me in some of the strongest terms not to read these two books. But if I have to learn of this company, why am I supposed not to read the books of the founder’s autobiographies? I think this is a wisdom I cannot comprehend for the time being, but all I need to do is to follow God’s leading and guidance, not to read these two books.

I think God is telling me to selectively read the news report from this newspaper. And I believe God is leading me to read the newspaper and learn from their writers’ writing vocabulary and style. As He is forbidding me to read the two books, I think from tomorrow on I will only focus on the news reporting from this newspaper, and learn from them. For other local news or other news reporting, I will just read only the headlines. This is the way I believe how God wills my training in writing, and I know I am going to learn from some of the best minds in this industry, and are in some ways related to me.

I believe that as I am somehow related to this newspaper company, my learning from their reporters will further sharpen and polish my competitive advantage: writing with SUPPORT. For the time being, I can only say that I am led to this right track, and I am really grateful that God leads me the way forward. To my readers: Have you found your mentors? Have you found the materials to follow to be a good writer? Believe in God and He will show you the way.

The Journey: Loving Relationship 26.7.2018

Businessman examining papers at table

Today I read about a fellow blogger’s acknowledgment of a loving relationship with God. Can you proudly tell everyone that you have a loving relationship with Him? At times when you occasionally do not feel the love of God, can you maintain your composure and admit that God’s best plan for you is in place?

God’s love for us is the biggest and best love that you can have in this world. Not only is it rewarding and satisfying, it is not a love that we can gain in this world. The love which is unconditional, and certainly not a transaction which is a normal phenomenon in our married adult’s life. However, I believe different people have different ways of feeling God’s love. For me, it is a reminder of my purpose and meaning of my life’s on earth: to work for and with God to achieve His will.

Somehow I always believe that working for and with God is one of the most important vocations in my life. Every time when I am in a down mode, whenever I am frustrated, and whenever I am about to lose faith, God will give me the feeling and the recognition of myself in His will, and tell me the following steps to work for and with Him, that is to do His will. Imagine when you are the son of a committing father, who comforts you when you have experienced a bad day in school and takes the effort to buy you a gift during this difficult period. This is what God has given me, every time and day when I am in a negative emotion, He will always give me a reassuring hug and give me a mental gift, the next minute, hour or day. He is telling me that, our love is not a transaction, and He will never leave me alone and will be there at the most critical moment. He will have a way to make me happy again, and His love is surely the best plan for me.

There should be times in our life in which we have doubts about God’s love during trials. Has God left me alone when I am sick with a disease? With the world laughing at me, has he abandoned me to face the world alone? For the previous five working days, I had felt God’s SUPPORT and Fighting Heart in these working mornings. However, I didn’t feel anything special today. Was he deserting me? No certainly not. He is always with me, whatever the difficult circumstances. And the fact that I didn’t feel anything special has a meaning, a wisdom that I cannot comprehend. The only way is to believe that it is God’s best plan for us. We just have to believe. And my frustration in the morning was rewarded with one of the best initial feelings while I was writing this blog in the afternoon. He gave me the strong feeling so that I could perform work for Him with love and caring although I was in difficult mental status. And today’s writing period was a time when I obviously felt a support when I was writing and has never happened before. And I believe this is another milestone for me. Will I feel the support when I write tomorrow? We will see.

I can proudly say that, whenever I am in a down mood and pressure that makes me worried, He will always, using His effort, to keep me afloat with various methods, and I strongly believe this is the best plan for me. I am starting to believe that I am at the happiest not because I am always facing an easy road ahead, but when every time I face difficulties in the narrow road ahead, He will “give me a lift”, by reminding me of his love and my role in His will.

If it is not the fact that I did not feel anything this morning, I would probably not have felt the love and encouragement when I was writing this blog post in the afternoon. His plan is really amazing. I felt His love, have you?

The Fifth Fighting Heart System: 25.7.2018

Female runner tying her shoes preparing for a run

After the strong SUPPORT and Fighting Heart (FH) yesterday, today at 12:08pm I felt the SUPPORT and FH again. However, compared to the four previous days, today’s feeling was only a slight feeling of the given power. I did not feel any special feeling and enthusiasm, and the feeling was only mediocre. Regardless of the lesser degree of the feeling, I can still achieve the work before the deadline today, but, I believe, without God’s given power to me all along the journey. One thing that was worth the notice was that, subsequent to the initial lesser feeling at 12:08pm, at 12:41pm and 1:17pm I again felt the SUPPORT and FH. But on these two occasions again the feeling was also not as strong as yesterday. I believe that God was communicating His will to me, through the feeling, and in a way telling me the degree or extent of the strongness of the feeling to me. Obviously, yesterday’s feeling was much stronger than today. Was it that yesterday’s happenings represent, I believe, a much more important event that might happen in the future, than today’s happenings? Or that the time of the feelings today shows me the degree of significance in respect of the experiences today as compared to the stronger feeling yesterday? We will see tomorrow.

Just a recap on yesterday’s experience, see The Fourth Fighting Heart System 24.7.2018. My explanation is that, I believe, God is telling me that I cannot and must not, in the future, overdo things. I believe He is telling me to only fulfill His will, as He is constantly communicating with me through feelings and dreams, and do no more than that. Follow the rules, and not do something that is not required of Him. And I believe, He will give me the power to do for and with Him.

The Fourth Fighting Heart System 24.7.2018

Running men icon

Yesterday I thought my 3rd episode of the Fighting Heart System would be the finale of the series, but because of some coincidental and strange scenarios today, I have a second thought and change my mind. I will continue with my happenings and experiences of the fighting heart and write them all on my blog.

This morning, for the 4th consecutive working days, I was inside the Fighting Heart System and I felt the SUPPORT. But today I finally felt the difference between the SUPPORT and the Fighting Heart (FH), inside the Fighting Heart System. The SUPPORT was clearly stronger than the FH, and during the time when I had it, I was very powerful and the enthusiasm was also very strong. And I had the energy and driving force to perform my work better.

Very coincidentally, I felt the SUPPORT and FH, at around 11:47am. That was the same time that I first started to feel the power yesterday. And because of this power that God gave me, I was able to perform my work with flair and confidence. I worked, worked, and worked, with the SUPPORT and FH, and was expecting to have a great day to jump over the final hurdle again with both the SUPPORT and FH at the final moment at 1:45pm, the time I normally finish my work. I was able to win the race yesterday, why couldn’t I do it today?

However, at around 12:34pm, I lost the power, again out of my own expectation. I initially hoped that I could work with the SUPPORT and FH until 1:45pm, but based on my previous experiences it generally wasn’t the case. In my first episode, I had a clear deadline, which was 1:30pm and I lost the power at 1:15pm. In the second episode, I didn’t have a clear deadline, but I knew I failed at the last minute at 19:59pm. Reflecting on today’s experience, was I doing God’s work up until 12:34pm, or I lost the battle before a potential deadline of 12:40pm or 12:45pm? If I had finished my work for God, that means 12:40pm or 12:45pm would then not be my target, today. On the other hand, if I was out-forced by the evil side, then that means that I actually lost the battle against Satan today.

Whatever the reasons, one thing is for certain, being in the Fighting Heart System is like being in a complex and complicated learning environment, a classroom that only consists of me and God. And I believe, He is overseeing my development and enables me to start and stop as He wills. I learn of His will through time in the FH System, and a possible explanation by dreams that He gives me on that same day. And along the way, I am motivated and given the driving force to perform my work better, which is both good for myself and my boss. What about tomorrow? We will see.

The Third Fighting Heart System 23.7.2018

Sportswoman with arms up celebrating success

Thank you for reading and I am going to wrap up the series of the Fighting Heart System with the third and final episode.

I arrived at work at 9:30am today, as usual. Though I slept at around 1am this morning, I did not feel particularly tired this early morning. And while I worked until 11am, my mind was still fresh and my thinking was clear. But the pressure and tiredness arrived after 11am. At this period, I was so weak and uncomfortable that I told my supervisor that I couldn’t stand anymore. “The pressure was terrible, and I was very uncomfortable.” That’s what I told myself. At this time, I was working on typing the PO information into the Accounting System. And I could not imagine how I could sustain the next two hours.

However, the tide soon turned at around 11:47am. At this time I heard one of my colleagues talking something about “redundancy.” Then immediately I felt an initial SUPPORT. However, it was not a particularly strong feeling. Only after around 5 minutes, when I read my boss’s encouraging what’s app message, I felt a full recovery and I felt a strong SUPPORT and I knew that I was inside the fighting heart system.

Then for the next 30 minutes, while I was inside the fighting heart system and working towards the goal of finishing the assignment before 1:45pm today, I was very energetic and enthusiastic. I worked powerfully, and efficiently, and I was trying to work to my best effort. And all this while I kept telling myself, “Work to my best effort, with the SUPPORT and fighting heart, and don’t let other factors or Satan to affect my work. Remember, every second counts, because I am working for and with God.

The progress was great, but when I started to realize that while I was working towards the end, I suddenly had a flash of doubt. Could I finish the work on time? Could I keep myself in the best shape and having the SUPPORT and fighting heart until the end? My previous two fighting heart days ended by losing the mental battle in the end. And so I was anticipating and were ready for a loss, again. But today’s was a victory for me, a mental victory, with flair and confidence. I finished my PO work at 12:18pm and the final hurdle was jumped over very successfully, with both the SUPPORT and fighting heart. I then congratulated myself with a smile, and I instantly knew that it was a great victory. All gratitude should be to God, I believe, who gave me the SUPPORT and the fighting heart today.

And that was my final episode on the Fighting Heart System. I hope you enjoy reading these three extraordinary happenings, which were given and inspired, I believe, from God.

The First Bible Study: 22.7.2018

An Opened Bible on a Table in a Green Garden

After losing the last minute war in the Fighting Heart System yesterday, I turned my full attention to studying the Bible today.

Today I was reading Matthew 16:21-28. And ten days ago I had a dream about three girls inside a train that somehow pointed to today’s happenings. At that time I did not know what were the implications of the dream, until today afternoon. Was it a coincidence, or that the dream about a train was the teaching that God told me to pay extra and special attention?

The relevant Scripture that I had quoted was about the prediction that Jesus must be killed and on the third day be raised to life, and Peter’s reaction to it. Continue in Matthew 16:22-23

22 Peter took him aside and began to rebuke him. “Never, Lord!” he said. “This shall never happen to you!” 23 Jesus turned and said to Peter, “Get behind me, Satan! You are a stumbling block to me; you do not have in mind the concerns of God, but merely human concerns.”

Yesterday I had read Matthew 16:13-20 and I actually put myself in the role of Peter in the story, which was implied by God, I believe, through a series of dreams. I believed that God was telling me to put myself in the seat of Peter, and leading to today’s teaching of the things that were said by Peter, as in 16:22, rather than what was said by Jesus, as in 16:23. I am not trying to say that Peter’s confession was more important than Jesus’s teaching, but just that there was something relevant in Peter’s words that God wanted me to know today. Although I admit that I cannot be an apostle, somehow I know that I still have important vocations to do for and with God. And today I believed God led me to know the phrase of 16:22 that was listed above. The passage tells us that Peter began to “rebuke” Jesus. It tells us the story that he still, up to this stage, was not wise enough to believe that Jesus had to die for us. He was thinking of human concerns but not the concerns of God. Both 16:22 and 16:23 represent important saying by Peter and the teachings of Jesus, but which one of them was the will of God to me that I should learn?

The dream of the “3” girls in a “train” probably, I believe, explained my situations today. First, today was the 22nd of July. That’s the first 22. And Matthew 16:22. That’s the second 22. And then the time when I was reading this passage was 1:22pm. That’s the third 22. Therefore, God had told me, I believe, that I had to pay extra attention to Matthew 16:22 today, and probably something about the “rebuke” that Peter had made to Jesus. But why and what? We will see.

The Second Fighting Heart System: 21.7.2018

Tired male runner resting after training.

Today was the second day, after yesterday’s initial feeling inside the Fighting Heart System. This morning and early afternoon, I ate Dim Sum with my family somewhere near our place. It was an emotional lunch, as I listened to a music and the music enabled me to feel God’s love and SUPPORT. I then went home and took a nap. The dreams were supportive ones, and after that, I went to the airport to pick up my son and family, as they came back from holiday in Australia. Because there were not enough seats in my mum’s car, I had to take a train. The time was around 6pm, and I took an express train to go back home. All along the journey from the airport back home, I was filled with strong SUPPORT. I didn’t keep telling myself that, “I have to meet a deadline, or I have to gain every second” as I had yesterday. But similar to yesterday’s working power, I had the power today in the transport.

I would classify that I was inside the Fighting Heart System again because coincidentally, at around 19:59pm, while I was still in a strong mood and power, I lost the strength again. It was a very strange feeling, as well as a very scary one, and I guessed that some evil forces have out-forced me at the last minute, just before 8pm. This feeling of the lapse of power was the same as yesterday, but the difference was yesterday before the deadline I had a clear target. And yesterday I was working towards the deadline and lost the power 15 minutes before the time destination. Today I was having the SUPPORT and was energetic, but not consciously aware of the final target that I have to, I believe, work for and with God. And at the last moment, just before 8pm, I lost the mental battle, and it was a very disappointing result. But given that I had strong SUPPORT for around 2 hours, I thought I had done a great job already, for and with God.