The Second Fighting Heart System: 21.7.2018

Tired male runner resting after training.

Today was the second day, after yesterday’s initial feeling inside the Fighting Heart System. This morning and early afternoon, I ate Dim Sum with my family somewhere near our place. It was an emotional lunch, as I listened to a music and the music enabled me to feel God’s love and SUPPORT. I then went home and took a nap. The dreams were supportive ones, and after that, I went to the airport to pick up my son and family, as they came back from holiday in Australia. Because there were not enough seats in my mum’s car, I had to take a train. The time was around 6pm, and I took an express train to go back home. All along the journey from the airport back home, I was filled with strong SUPPORT. I didn’t keep telling myself that, “I have to meet a deadline, or I have to gain every second” as I had yesterday. But similar to yesterday’s working power, I had the power today in the transport.

I would classify that I was inside the Fighting Heart System again because coincidentally, at around 19:59pm, while I was still in a strong mood and power, I lost the strength again. It was a very strange feeling, as well as a very scary one, and I guessed that some evil forces have out-forced me at the last minute, just before 8pm. This feeling of the lapse of power was the same as yesterday, but the difference was yesterday before the deadline I had a clear target. And yesterday I was working towards the deadline and lost the power 15 minutes before the time destination. Today I was having the SUPPORT and was energetic, but not consciously aware of the final target that I have to, I believe, work for and with God. And at the last moment, just before 8pm, I lost the mental battle, and it was a very disappointing result. But given that I had strong SUPPORT for around 2 hours, I thought I had done a great job already, for and with God.

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