Yesterday I thought my 3rd episode of the Fighting Heart System would be the finale of the series, but because of some coincidental and strange scenarios today, I have a second thought and change my mind. I will continue with my happenings and experiences of the fighting heart and write them all on my blog.
This morning, for the 4th consecutive working days, I was inside the Fighting Heart System and I felt the SUPPORT. But today I finally felt the difference between the SUPPORT and the Fighting Heart (FH), inside the Fighting Heart System. The SUPPORT was clearly stronger than the FH, and during the time when I had it, I was very powerful and the enthusiasm was also very strong. And I had the energy and driving force to perform my work better.
Very coincidentally, I felt the SUPPORT and FH, at around 11:47am. That was the same time that I first started to feel the power yesterday. And because of this power that God gave me, I was able to perform my work with flair and confidence. I worked, worked, and worked, with the SUPPORT and FH, and was expecting to have a great day to jump over the final hurdle again with both the SUPPORT and FH at the final moment at 1:45pm, the time I normally finish my work. I was able to win the race yesterday, why couldn’t I do it today?
However, at around 12:34pm, I lost the power, again out of my own expectation. I initially hoped that I could work with the SUPPORT and FH until 1:45pm, but based on my previous experiences it generally wasn’t the case. In my first episode, I had a clear deadline, which was 1:30pm and I lost the power at 1:15pm. In the second episode, I didn’t have a clear deadline, but I knew I failed at the last minute at 19:59pm. Reflecting on today’s experience, was I doing God’s work up until 12:34pm, or I lost the battle before a potential deadline of 12:40pm or 12:45pm? If I had finished my work for God, that means 12:40pm or 12:45pm would then not be my target, today. On the other hand, if I was out-forced by the evil side, then that means that I actually lost the battle against Satan today.
Whatever the reasons, one thing is for certain, being in the Fighting Heart System is like being in a complex and complicated learning environment, a classroom that only consists of me and God. And I believe, He is overseeing my development and enables me to start and stop as He wills. I learn of His will through time in the FH System, and a possible explanation by dreams that He gives me on that same day. And along the way, I am motivated and given the driving force to perform my work better, which is both good for myself and my boss. What about tomorrow? We will see.