The Journey: The Support Distraction 3.8.2018

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After about a week of resting, here I come again, with a blog post today. And guess what, it was the SUPPORT that I had after a series of bad dreams this early morning and afternoon, and after a meeting with an elder of a church. We talked about how those 12 apostles, and especially Peter, who denied knowing Jesus, following the arrest of Jesus. I asked the elder, and subsequently, my boss, who is also a knowledgeable Christian, if even Peter, the main spokesman of the Church, did make mistakes, how about us? After some 2.5 hours of discussion, we came to the conclusion that if he made mistakes, that means he had acted as a negative model, and we have to learn from his mistakes, and should refrain from doing them again. If Peter denied Jesus, then we should keep our commitment to God and Jesus, even if we are in a choice of life and death scenario. If Peter did not have enough faith on Jesus’s miracles, we have to trust in the Lord. This is the way to learn from the characters of the Bible. We have to follow Jesus’s teachings, and we have to prevent ourselves from doing the wrong things that the Bible’s characters had done in the past.

Having said that, I had strong SUPPORT after eating my dinner. For at least a week, I had not felt the SUPPORT, specifically during this time period. I don’t know the reasons, but I believe God was giving me the SUPPORT today because I had some bad dreams, and He gave me the SUPPORT to keep me afloat. Having listened to the music for quite some time, I had strong energy and enthusiasm, and I told myself, “James, I am done tonight, just enjoy the SUPPORT for the rest of the night, with God. Rejoice every moment.” And then I switched on and watched a movie, with the SUPPORT. After some 10 minutes of the movie, there was the scene of a naked woman. Then suddenly the strong SUPPORT was gone. What left behind was, I was still powerful, but the enthusiasm was gone. After this disappointing incident, I then switched off the movie, and the strong SUPPORT was with me again. What I observed was that the SUPPORT, I believe, was God’s given power, but there may be outside forces that can affect me using this power. My experience today tells me that, don’t give in to sin, no matter it is a big or a small one, sinning has, I believe, a negative effect to using the power, at times, to work for and with God.

The Journey: Your Support 14.7.2018

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Today’s feeling was like a roller coaster ride to me. In the morning I had several dreams which gave me support for the morning and the afternoon. I was in great shape then, as I felt God’s mental and physical SUPPORT to me. However, it was a different scenario at night. The pressure and worries were building up, strongly, and this emotional invasion was some attack that I had not felt for a long time. My commitment to writing one blog post in two days was beginning to crumble, because of the worries, as today midnight will be the deadline to finish writing a blog post. I was about to give up and call my close friends, though few, to look for support. During this difficult period, I knew that God was with me, but I still felt the lonely feeling I hadn’t felt for quite sometime. Then I read one of our fellow bloggers’ blog post, about we have to follow strictly Jesus’s teachings, daily, continuously, and realize that Jesus was the perfect example of the way we should adhere to. Instantly, I switched on the computer and continued my writing journey, again, writing this blog post, with energy and enthusiasm. The fellow blogger’s blog post had given me the support that before only God has given me. I could not, until now, realize that support from fellow bloggers can be that rewarding, also. Then I switched on the music and listened to the music that in the past gave me a victory against the evil side of emotions. And I knew that presently there was another overwhelming victory against the evil side, in my mind.

Thank you, fellow bloggers. You all not only gave me a strong lift to let me have my confidence and energy again, and more importantly to again remind myself that my commitment has to be met, whatever challenges, difficulties, temptations, and excuses. A job has to be done. To our fellow bloggers who are writing for and with God who has given us our writing abilities, do not be disheartened. Remember that God will be with you, and if anyone of you are in difficulties or need any support, you can write a comment to me, and I will try to write an inspiring piece to help you. I am sure other fellow bloggers will be happy to do the same also. Again, we have to remember to continue our writing, because God is giving us the inspiration and the experiences. Do not disappoint Him. We have a job to do. And we are doing for and with Him.

The Journey: Support Work 15.5.2018

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Having made the “give all” decision, and not regretting a single moment for the last few days, today I did have a change of heart. My heart for Jesus and God does not change, and will never change, but there are the priorities and the view of what is more important, to me and those close to me.

If you have read another blog post of mine, The Journey: Love Support 6.5.2018, you can see that I had experienced a kind of “SUPPORT” from God, I firmly believe, from time to time. The SUPPORT happened most of the time when I was under big and sometimes huge pressure, which enabled me to change from a mental abyss to a mental summit, and gave me energy and enthusiasm to work even better during my work times. Today morning we had a meeting, which talked about our new accounting system. And being one of the team members who was responsible for typing in the data, I was then to give a demonstration of the typing in procedures in front of about seven colleagues. I was very weak, in the past, to give a public demonstration, and today I was supposed to give an English presentation, which usually frightened me a lot. However, when I thought of the way Peter and other Apostles gave speeches in the past, I today got the confidence and indeed the power to give the presentation in a way that far exceeded my previous expectation. And I was amazed at the way, the flow and the tenacity of my speech that I knew that my speech was “given” with the help of God. It was He who enabled me to make the speech in a flawless way, He helped me and was with me.

Reflecting on this speech afterward, I realized of an important finding of the SUPPORT. The SUPPORT happened was, I firmly believe, in fact, a “time” in which I was supposed to do God’s work. So that every time when I have the SUPPORT, whether it is when I am working, walking in the street, taking a shower, or accompanying my wife to sleep, it is a time I have to work for God. My understanding is, this Godly given power, is given to me so that I have to perform for God at that particular moment. So having realized this, I now come to the conclusion that I have a role to do, on earth, to work for God at particular moments. I may need to work better when I have the SUPPORT at work, or I have to talk to my wife with more dedication when I have the SUPPORT while accompanying her to sleep. I am now 24 hours on alert to work for Him, based on the timing of the SUPPORT that He gives me. My rationale is, the SUPPORT does not happen and given to me randomly, but a Godly lifting to me so that I can, at those time, be better at work, or give a speech, for example. Either it is only a help, or a wake-up call to my thinkings at those times, or I have to work for Him, and I choose to believe in the latter, as today’s SUPPORT for my speech was thus a work for God, on earth.

Because of this blessing and mercy, my second thought is it is more important for me to work for God, because working for Him on earth will affect many lives on earth, rather than give away my everything, to show my love to Him, in one go. At this moment, it is my working age, my responsibility is to work with all of my focus, and my giving all can be deferred at a later time, when I have fully retired from working on earth for God. I know that I have never a moment of doubt of my decision to give all, but currently is not the right time to do such a thing. But God, I love you with all my heart, soul and mind, and I know that performing your will is more important, presently, than I give everything to you. I promise I will do my best since you give me mercy and the gift to work for you on earth, and I will not disappoint you. Again thanks for everything.

The Journey: Love Support 6.5.2018

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Today I am going to talk about Love and Support, from God.

Just like yesterday, I woke up at around 9:15am this morning. I had dreams as usual, and some of them were bad dreams, coupled with some light dreams. One of the dark dreams was a word which meant suffering, and pain. For normal people, who do not have a relationship with God, they will view this dream as a nightmare to them. They may say, what matters more than the safety of our lives, and the continuity of our enjoyment in worldly material things? But let me tell you that we Christians think in another way. We live to glorify God on earth, we live to be the servants of God, and we help and do good to our neighbours. Therefore our lives are dedicated to God, and we live to believe and work with God on earth.

Going back to the suffering dream this morning, if I continue to walk the narrow road ahead, there will be possibilities of pain and suffering, to me. But I kept on telling myself, as I had already convinced myself, that God’s work on earth is more important than anything else. The possibility of God’s work on earth or spreading the good news is thus more important than the worldly enjoyment of money, power and wealth, to me.

After that, I started to go to Sunday mass at 12 noon. I arrived early, and during the first 15 minutes of the Mass, I was very emotional to the extent I cried out, because I knew I was a sinner. I could not stop my tears, until the moment came, the moment I felt the feeling of “Support”. That was the moment when the pastor was teaching John 15:9-17 which talked about “Love”. At this time, I suddenly felt a changing of the emotion, from depression to enthusiasm. My tears were gone, and the result was that I had felt some sort of “Support” which enabled me to forget about all the wrongdoings, and gave me a mental uplift so that I could enjoy the following time of the mass with energy and enthusiasm. The important implication of this incident was that, once again, and I firmly believe, God had shown me his “Love” when I was in a mental abyss and He let me endure the depression at the “worldly pace” and performed a “mental miracle”, I believe, to give me a confirmation of His love to me, at the right place and at the right time. Although this “Support” had happened before several times already, none of my previous experiences can match today’s confirmation. It’s worth to know that I do not have a chance to follow Jesus in His ministry, but I am grateful for God’s love to me, and hope to have the great honour to work with Him, on earth. To conclude, I would like to quote a phrase from Matthew 8:18-20

When Jesus saw the crowd around him, he gave orders to cross to the other side of the lake. Then a teacher of the law came to him and said, “Teacher, I will follow you wherever you go.” Jesus replied, “Foxes have dens and birds have nests, but the Son of Man has no place to lay his head.”

Following Jesus in the past was a difficult act, as “Jesus had no place to lay his head”, and I believe by traveling the narrow road and work with God would not be an easy act either. But I have the drive and boldness, both were blessed and given with my journey with God, so far, and are ready to learn and in future do what I am supposed to do for the betterment of the Church and humanity. Thank God again.

The Support Explanation: 15.1.2018

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One of the readers of my blog had given me a comment about me not explicitly stated that it was God who gave me the support. What she said was how can I show my witness to God if I do not believe the SUPPORT is from God and He is helping me? I have absolute faith that the SUPPORT is from God but I cannot prove it. And I am sure there will be mysteries of the SUPPORT that is yet to be disclosed. So I take the strategy to wait for confirmation. But the wait had finally arrived, tonight. It was a series of events that had led to tonight’s explanation. It was not a disclosure from vision, or calling, or dreams, but from a series of feelings.

Today at around 7:30pm I was reading the news. Conflicting thoughts occupied my mind as I struggled between pressure and support, seemingly a battle between light and evil. Not only was I weak in my mind, my body near my stomach was also under some pain pressure. I then sat down on the sofa, beginning to write something about this blog. Immediately, the battle slightly turned tiles, and I felt better both in the mind and the body. But there was no obvious support that I felt. Sustaining myself from pressure, I then went into the bathroom and was about to take a bath. I switched on the music, and in my mind, there was a flash of thinking “I am proud to say that the SUPPORT is from God”, I then felt the SUPPORT, and was in great shape again for the rest of the night. Though the SUPPORT was not as great in feeling as compared to the SUPPORT incident on 11.1.2018, it was already an initial recognition and confirmation of the fact that God gave me the SUPPORT, I believe.

The First Support: 14.1.2018

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Having initially conquered my fear with a series of support and the SUPPORT I had mentioned previously in my blog post, today was a date of celebration, as I had a breakthrough in the journey of the SUPPORT. This afternoon at around 2:30pm I was sleeping on my sofa when I had a dream of doing something wrong and in the same instance saw a time. What was the reason for such vision I now had yet to comprehend, but I am sure in the coming future there will be answers to this vision. Asking myself what this revelation meant and carrying on picking up Jake from a music lesson, I arrived at the lift at my place’s lobby. Together with Jake and two other people we went into the lift. We, as usual, pressed the buttons of our individual floors. And suddenly a feeling of embarrassment and guilty had started to occupy my state of mind. It was a feeling that when happened in the past would make me in a weak position, and expected, would affect the physical and mental proper functioning of my body. However, I then had an instant flash of hope for fighting back of this bad feeling, I lifted up my head, and then the SUPPORT came to me at the same time. My weak mind had then instantly changed to a strong mind, with power, energy, and enthusiasm, overcoming and conquering the bad emotions. This resembles the dream that I had before.  Was the SUPPORT today a prologue to what will happen in the future revealed to me in today’s vision?

The First Support: 11.1.2018

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After the shielding and protection from the SUPPORT this morning at work, I was grateful that another SUPPORT happened at night. I was at one of the best shapes in morning and afternoon and I was expecting the same situation at night. But of course, there was a saying, what goes up must come down, the sudden pressure happened at around 10pm. At that moment, I was talking to and accompanying my wife to sleep. And then I switched on the mobile and read the news. It was a generally nervous and sensitive moment in my mind as I recalled a bad dream last year that was about something I had done wrong in the past. I could only fantasize that such a dream was from some kind of evil I could not visualize as in the same morning I had heard in a dream that I would be continuously protected. As a result of this sensitivity at that moment, my mind was swung to a downward spiral. Everything in my mind collapsed, and I was simply helpless. I then switched off the news site and turned on the music. Then, without any expectation or anticipation, I suddenly felt the SUPPORT, and my mind was turned from huge downward emotions to an extremely high emotional level. The SUPPORT that I felt was the strongest among all support that I had encountered in the past. The feeling was very forceful and it was very obvious it was some kind of “help” from an unknown source that I could not identify at the moment. Anyway, I firmly believe it was from God, and He helped me to overcome this difficult moment.