The Fifth Fighting Heart System: 25.7.2018

Female runner tying her shoes preparing for a run

After the strong SUPPORT and Fighting Heart (FH) yesterday, today at 12:08pm I felt the SUPPORT and FH again. However, compared to the four previous days, today’s feeling was only a slight feeling of the given power. I did not feel any special feeling and enthusiasm, and the feeling was only mediocre. Regardless of the lesser degree of the feeling, I can still achieve the work before the deadline today, but, I believe, without God’s given power to me all along the journey. One thing that was worth the notice was that, subsequent to the initial lesser feeling at 12:08pm, at 12:41pm and 1:17pm I again felt the SUPPORT and FH. But on these two occasions again the feeling was also not as strong as yesterday. I believe that God was communicating His will to me, through the feeling, and in a way telling me the degree or extent of the strongness of the feeling to me. Obviously, yesterday’s feeling was much stronger than today. Was it that yesterday’s happenings represent, I believe, a much more important event that might happen in the future, than today’s happenings? Or that the time of the feelings today shows me the degree of significance in respect of the experiences today as compared to the stronger feeling yesterday? We will see tomorrow.

Just a recap on yesterday’s experience, see The Fourth Fighting Heart System 24.7.2018. My explanation is that, I believe, God is telling me that I cannot and must not, in the future, overdo things. I believe He is telling me to only fulfill His will, as He is constantly communicating with me through feelings and dreams, and do no more than that. Follow the rules, and not do something that is not required of Him. And I believe, He will give me the power to do for and with Him.

The Fourth Fighting Heart System 24.7.2018

Running men icon

Yesterday I thought my 3rd episode of the Fighting Heart System would be the finale of the series, but because of some coincidental and strange scenarios today, I have a second thought and change my mind. I will continue with my happenings and experiences of the fighting heart and write them all on my blog.

This morning, for the 4th consecutive working days, I was inside the Fighting Heart System and I felt the SUPPORT. But today I finally felt the difference between the SUPPORT and the Fighting Heart (FH), inside the Fighting Heart System. The SUPPORT was clearly stronger than the FH, and during the time when I had it, I was very powerful and the enthusiasm was also very strong. And I had the energy and driving force to perform my work better.

Very coincidentally, I felt the SUPPORT and FH, at around 11:47am. That was the same time that I first started to feel the power yesterday. And because of this power that God gave me, I was able to perform my work with flair and confidence. I worked, worked, and worked, with the SUPPORT and FH, and was expecting to have a great day to jump over the final hurdle again with both the SUPPORT and FH at the final moment at 1:45pm, the time I normally finish my work. I was able to win the race yesterday, why couldn’t I do it today?

However, at around 12:34pm, I lost the power, again out of my own expectation. I initially hoped that I could work with the SUPPORT and FH until 1:45pm, but based on my previous experiences it generally wasn’t the case. In my first episode, I had a clear deadline, which was 1:30pm and I lost the power at 1:15pm. In the second episode, I didn’t have a clear deadline, but I knew I failed at the last minute at 19:59pm. Reflecting on today’s experience, was I doing God’s work up until 12:34pm, or I lost the battle before a potential deadline of 12:40pm or 12:45pm? If I had finished my work for God, that means 12:40pm or 12:45pm would then not be my target, today. On the other hand, if I was out-forced by the evil side, then that means that I actually lost the battle against Satan today.

Whatever the reasons, one thing is for certain, being in the Fighting Heart System is like being in a complex and complicated learning environment, a classroom that only consists of me and God. And I believe, He is overseeing my development and enables me to start and stop as He wills. I learn of His will through time in the FH System, and a possible explanation by dreams that He gives me on that same day. And along the way, I am motivated and given the driving force to perform my work better, which is both good for myself and my boss. What about tomorrow? We will see.

The Third Fighting Heart System 23.7.2018

Sportswoman with arms up celebrating success

Thank you for reading and I am going to wrap up the series of the Fighting Heart System with the third and final episode.

I arrived at work at 9:30am today, as usual. Though I slept at around 1am this morning, I did not feel particularly tired this early morning. And while I worked until 11am, my mind was still fresh and my thinking was clear. But the pressure and tiredness arrived after 11am. At this period, I was so weak and uncomfortable that I told my supervisor that I couldn’t stand anymore. “The pressure was terrible, and I was very uncomfortable.” That’s what I told myself. At this time, I was working on typing the PO information into the Accounting System. And I could not imagine how I could sustain the next two hours.

However, the tide soon turned at around 11:47am. At this time I heard one of my colleagues talking something about “redundancy.” Then immediately I felt an initial SUPPORT. However, it was not a particularly strong feeling. Only after around 5 minutes, when I read my boss’s encouraging what’s app message, I felt a full recovery and I felt a strong SUPPORT and I knew that I was inside the fighting heart system.

Then for the next 30 minutes, while I was inside the fighting heart system and working towards the goal of finishing the assignment before 1:45pm today, I was very energetic and enthusiastic. I worked powerfully, and efficiently, and I was trying to work to my best effort. And all this while I kept telling myself, “Work to my best effort, with the SUPPORT and fighting heart, and don’t let other factors or Satan to affect my work. Remember, every second counts, because I am working for and with God.

The progress was great, but when I started to realize that while I was working towards the end, I suddenly had a flash of doubt. Could I finish the work on time? Could I keep myself in the best shape and having the SUPPORT and fighting heart until the end? My previous two fighting heart days ended by losing the mental battle in the end. And so I was anticipating and were ready for a loss, again. But today’s was a victory for me, a mental victory, with flair and confidence. I finished my PO work at 12:18pm and the final hurdle was jumped over very successfully, with both the SUPPORT and fighting heart. I then congratulated myself with a smile, and I instantly knew that it was a great victory. All gratitude should be to God, I believe, who gave me the SUPPORT and the fighting heart today.

And that was my final episode on the Fighting Heart System. I hope you enjoy reading these three extraordinary happenings, which were given and inspired, I believe, from God.

The First Bible Study: 22.7.2018

An Opened Bible on a Table in a Green Garden

After losing the last minute war in the Fighting Heart System yesterday, I turned my full attention to studying the Bible today.

Today I was reading Matthew 16:21-28. And ten days ago I had a dream about three girls inside a train that somehow pointed to today’s happenings. At that time I did not know what were the implications of the dream, until today afternoon. Was it a coincidence, or that the dream about a train was the teaching that God told me to pay extra and special attention?

The relevant Scripture that I had quoted was about the prediction that Jesus must be killed and on the third day be raised to life, and Peter’s reaction to it. Continue in Matthew 16:22-23

22 Peter took him aside and began to rebuke him. “Never, Lord!” he said. “This shall never happen to you!” 23 Jesus turned and said to Peter, “Get behind me, Satan! You are a stumbling block to me; you do not have in mind the concerns of God, but merely human concerns.”

Yesterday I had read Matthew 16:13-20 and I actually put myself in the role of Peter in the story, which was implied by God, I believe, through a series of dreams. I believed that God was telling me to put myself in the seat of Peter, and leading to today’s teaching of the things that were said by Peter, as in 16:22, rather than what was said by Jesus, as in 16:23. I am not trying to say that Peter’s confession was more important than Jesus’s teaching, but just that there was something relevant in Peter’s words that God wanted me to know today. Although I admit that I cannot be an apostle, somehow I know that I still have important vocations to do for and with God. And today I believed God led me to know the phrase of 16:22 that was listed above. The passage tells us that Peter began to “rebuke” Jesus. It tells us the story that he still, up to this stage, was not wise enough to believe that Jesus had to die for us. He was thinking of human concerns but not the concerns of God. Both 16:22 and 16:23 represent important saying by Peter and the teachings of Jesus, but which one of them was the will of God to me that I should learn?

The dream of the “3” girls in a “train” probably, I believe, explained my situations today. First, today was the 22nd of July. That’s the first 22. And Matthew 16:22. That’s the second 22. And then the time when I was reading this passage was 1:22pm. That’s the third 22. Therefore, God had told me, I believe, that I had to pay extra attention to Matthew 16:22 today, and probably something about the “rebuke” that Peter had made to Jesus. But why and what? We will see.

The Second Fighting Heart System: 21.7.2018

Tired male runner resting after training.

Today was the second day, after yesterday’s initial feeling inside the Fighting Heart System. This morning and early afternoon, I ate Dim Sum with my family somewhere near our place. It was an emotional lunch, as I listened to a music and the music enabled me to feel God’s love and SUPPORT. I then went home and took a nap. The dreams were supportive ones, and after that, I went to the airport to pick up my son and family, as they came back from holiday in Australia. Because there were not enough seats in my mum’s car, I had to take a train. The time was around 6pm, and I took an express train to go back home. All along the journey from the airport back home, I was filled with strong SUPPORT. I didn’t keep telling myself that, “I have to meet a deadline, or I have to gain every second” as I had yesterday. But similar to yesterday’s working power, I had the power today in the transport.

I would classify that I was inside the Fighting Heart System again because coincidentally, at around 19:59pm, while I was still in a strong mood and power, I lost the strength again. It was a very strange feeling, as well as a very scary one, and I guessed that some evil forces have out-forced me at the last minute, just before 8pm. This feeling of the lapse of power was the same as yesterday, but the difference was yesterday before the deadline I had a clear target. And yesterday I was working towards the deadline and lost the power 15 minutes before the time destination. Today I was having the SUPPORT and was energetic, but not consciously aware of the final target that I have to, I believe, work for and with God. And at the last moment, just before 8pm, I lost the mental battle, and it was a very disappointing result. But given that I had strong SUPPORT for around 2 hours, I thought I had done a great job already, for and with God.

The First Fighting Heart System: 20.7.2018

Runners training outdoors by the seaside

I had, and experienced the fighting heart today, this morning at work.

Although being a Friday, this morning was a fresh start for me. This was the initial feeling that I had when I started my work at 9:30am. My feeling was like today was the first day of the year, a new start and an expectation that things would start better than before. And it proved to be the case. A wonderful morning.

From 9:30am up to 1:15pm, I would say I was inside the Fighting Heart System. I was filled with energy and strength that I performed the work with utmost efficiency, and intensity, without listening to any music. I kept telling myself, “Well the deadline is coming, I have to perform to my best effort to try to gain every second.” And I knew that being an Accountant Assistant in my job, I have to meet deadline all the time, so I believe God knew it and helped me to reach the deadline by giving me the fighting heart, the perseverance and the strength to perform.

And more important is that I know God has entrusted me with the bags of gold, and He is my true boss, so I have to perform, for and with Him. Although today’s schedule was not tight, all along I was telling myself that I have to put in my best effort in every second, because I know God has high expectation on me.

With the fighting heart, at around 1pm, I then had a final target to meet, for today. I told my boss that I will finish the PO before 1:30pm. And then the final battle began, with around 30 minutes to finish my commitment, both to my boss and God. All along, I had the SUPPORT and fighting heart with me, but I had no idea how the final 30 minutes would go. Could I meet the target? That’s the motivation that I was facing for the final sprint in a 4×400 relay race I talked about yesterday.

For the first 15 minutes, I was able to work powerfully, as I knew that God was with me and I believe He gave me both the SUPPORT and fighting heart to continue. Run, run, run. Believe in yourself and God. Don’t let other outside factors or Satan to affect me. Then at the final moment, at 1:15pm, I suddenly felt the power was gone. I was instantly in a precarious position, without the power and energy that God had given me for the whole morning.

I do not know why, but given the hard work I had done in the morning, though with a lapse of power at the final minutes, I still could finish my work on time, by sending the total figure to my boss just before 1:30pm. In conclusion, though I slipped in the last minutes, I was still grateful that all along the journey this morning was a fruitful one and God was with me all the time. And I was honoured to have finished the work on time, that will remind me of today and many days ahead, “James, you have done a great job today.”

Give All: Working Part One

Relay Baton

After yesterday’s blog post about giving all in my part-time role as a blogger, today I experienced a great day. Not only my physical being was energetic, my mind was also very enthusiastic. The worries had dissipated. The uncertainty had gone. And what came was a peace of mind and strong SUPPORT.

Today was one of the happiest days of my life. And today’s happiness and joyful mind were driven by a single factor, that I am having a responsibility in God’s work. It is not about how much money I can make. It is not about how long I can live. And it is not about how much worldly status and power that I can have. It is all about working for God, to be one of His tools to make the world a better place.

Yesterday I talked about how a fictitious father who prepared everything for His son in order that he can raise his son up so that the kid can be strong enough to do good and glorify God on earth. Imagine that the father has a sizable business, will the son be responsible enough to continue the development of the business and make it thriving? Or is he to take up the business to make more money? The difference is, the former is a responsibility, while the latter is to fulfil the egoistic desire.

I do not have a father who has a business for me to pick up, but I have the Father, God himself, who gives me the gift to continue writing. And why He has chosen me for this vocation? Why does He give mercy to me to let me join and work in His vineyard?

The reason is He loves me. And He loves you too. The work you do, the family that you have and any other voluntary activities that you do are all works for and with Him. Most of the time we have a choice to do or not to do something. But can we admit to ourself that, well, I have grown old enough to pick up the baton from those who ran so painstakingly in a 4×400 relay race before me? And what about if I might be the fourth and the last runner, therefore having a big responsibility to perform, will you be serious enough to be thinking, “Well, this time I have to deliver.”

Having responsibilities means having the expectation, during the journey, to work to a particular goal or target in future. The road is narrow for us, but the fact that God is with us gives us the assurance that we can know His love at all times. And God leads the way, and we grow hand in hand with our responsibilities. Every time we reach a milestone, we know that God will share His happiness with us, and then He will entrust further responsibilities to us. My example is the SUPPORT he has given me. In certain times, like today, He gave me the feeling and the joyfulness that is worth my every action to repay Him.

This is the journey of love. This is the journey of gratitude. And this is the journey of personal and collective achievements for the world. Will you be proud enough to tell everyone that you will fulfil your job for and with God, and do your responsibility to make the world a better place? Do you know that God will be with you, in times of happiness and despair? Are you prepared to perform if you may be potentially, but not consciously aware, one of the last runners in this once-in-a-lifetime relay race? Will you, in some days, give all to Him because He has given you the joyfulness during the journey, the priceless gift that only God’s love can give?