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The Journey: Fulfilling 10.8.2018

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Yesterday and today I had the same dream: a number. And I believe it was related to a time of my journey yesterday and today. I proudly say that I was fulfilling the time, and thus fulfilling God’s will and my destiny.

Yesterday was a normal working day and I finished work at 1:45pm. After that, I went to a church in Causeway Bay to pray to God. The reason for my prayer yesterday was to give thanks to Him for all His mercy and His love to me. Then I went to Times Square to buy a computer for my wife. The surprising thing was, after I was inside the shop I watched the time: Oops, it was the same time as I had dreamed yesterday: the number.

Then today I went to the same church to pray again. After the prayer, I had a sudden instinct that I had to watch the time because of something that I believe God wanted me to know. And I did it, and the time showed an exact time: xx:yy:00. Little did I know that after dinner would I find that I was fulfilling the time again: the number, when I researched the internet.

After the 19:30pm dinner, I was researching the internet on something I was planning to do next Monday. And soon I discovered about a price of something that I was looking for, and the price showed an exact amount which was like the time I had seen after my prayer: $x:yy. I instantly knew that this was the thing with the price I was looking for and I watched the time again: Oops, it was nearly the same time, the same number that I had dreamt of yesterday and today morning. However, I was one minute late. 

Reflecting on my experience today, did I fail to fufill my destiny today by one minute late? Or was it the will that I should be late by one minute? Was there anything I can do better to meet the exact time again? Were there some negative influences that affect my performances and thus making me failing by one minute? Was there an existence of a “Plan B”? If there was a “Plan B”, how would I choose the different options? Should I choose the actions by deciding myself rather than waiting for God’s leading and make the actions only after a thorough analysis of God’s guidance?

These are probably some of the most complex and challenging decisions for us to make in our lives. I hope you all can make the right decisions and thus fulfilling God’s will by wisely following His guidance and make the right and exact decisions.

The Journey: Witness 9.8.2018

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Do you believe that God will give us mercy? Do you believe this mercy that He freely gives is a witness that we have, personally? Have you ever shared your witness of this mercy to others?

Today I went to my parents’ place to have dinner. When I arrived at 6:30pm, my mum was cooking the food. The TV was switched on, and my father was watching a Korean drama movie. After sitting on the chair for some five minutes, I soon felt tired. Very tired indeed. I then fell asleep. And for the next ten minutes, I was sleeping and had some dreams. And one of them was a nightmare. As a result, when the food was served and we sat on the dining table to eat, I was speechless, filled with pressure and fear. I was scared because of the dream and it made me feel very uncomfortable.

My father probably had noticed my uneasiness, and he then asked me: “Are you sleepy?” At the time when he asked me this question, my mind was nervous and edgy. I then answered his question: “Yes, I was tired, mostly because I had come back from going to a church to pray in the afternoon.” Then suddenly, after saying this, my mind was transformed from an abyss to a summit. I was filled with power and then I spoke and answered my parents’ talking with energy and enthusiasm. And for the rest of the time with my parents, I just felt strong and marvelous.

Reflecting on today’s happenings, I became powerful and enthusiastic, even when I was in a terrible mindset, when I talked about a prayer today. This can be considered as the SUPPORT that I had mentioned in many of my previous blog posts. And today I believe God had led me to show my witness, that is the SUPPORT, to my parents. Whether God had purposely made me falling asleep and gave me the SUPPORT when I talked about Him, was debatable. And I will leave you, my readers to draw your own conclusions.

However, one thing I am sure of is that I am proud to be a witness of the SUPPORT, in which He freely gives me as a mercy to mentally feel and share with other readers. And on this day today, He let me share the witness with my parents directly and physically. I think they probably may ask themselves in the coming days: “Why is there such a change in James’ way of thinking and speaking? He used to be an introvert and now he is strong with the power while talking. Is this what God has done to him?” And I hope that my physical sharing of this witness to my parents and the sharing of this witness in my blog can enlighten more people to know about God, and the big love and mercy that He gives us.

The Journey: The Purpose 7.8.2018

Human hand placed on the Bible, pray to God.

Do you consider working for and with God the most successful vocation in your life? Do you enjoy the journey of preparing and actually performing His work? Do you believe His Mercy can be so big that can totally transform you from a little child and become a joyful adult?

I believe them firmly, a three “yes” to the above. I had been a sinner, before. Big sinner. However, I believe I am that lucky person to be called by God to do something, on earth, for and with Him. And it is a short-term job. Why? The only reason I can think of, is Mercy. The Mercy of performing a big responsibility for and with Him, on earth. God doesn’t need me to do anything or from anyone. But I was called to perform for and with Him. Again why? I believe He had chosen me and give me the Mercy. There may be other kinds of mercy, for example, a healing of cancer, or other diseases. But what I am given is not only of the Mercy of the work that I am to do for and with Him, but also the Mercy of the journey before the work.

I was a troubled kid. I was shy, introverted and afraid of meeting people. But I believe God’s mercy has given me the confidence, the drive and more importantly, the power to face people. To interact with others. And to be a model to those who are close to me. This Mercy, which can be considered as a social gift, also acts as a training gift, to let me grow and mature, to finally face the big job for and with Him. I was facing some of the greatest pressure before, as people think my life is a joke, and laugh at me. What they fail to understand is that I believe God has a plan for me, and all I need to do is to walk through it.

I could not describe the happiness and the joy I am having recently, and I am now getting better prepared for the work, as days go by. And the reason behind my joy and happiness is because I understand a simple truth: “I am working for God’s purpose, rather than hoping God will have mercy on me and enable me to achieve my purpose.” Only a true and mature Christian can realize this important and I consider a life-changing phrase, and once you know it, I believe you will be transformed to become a happy and joyful believer of God.

The Journey: The Support Distraction 3.8.2018

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After about a week of resting, here I come again, with a blog post today. And guess what, it was the SUPPORT that I had after a series of bad dreams this early morning and afternoon, and after a meeting with an elder of a church. We talked about how those 12 apostles, and especially Peter, who denied knowing Jesus, following the arrest of Jesus. I asked the elder, and subsequently, my boss, who is also a knowledgeable Christian, if even Peter, the main spokesman of the Church, did make mistakes, how about us? After some 2.5 hours of discussion, we came to the conclusion that if he made mistakes, that means he had acted as a negative model, and we have to learn from his mistakes, and should refrain from doing them again. If Peter denied Jesus, then we should keep our commitment to God and Jesus, even if we are in a choice of life and death scenario. If Peter did not have enough faith on Jesus’s miracles, we have to trust in the Lord. This is the way to learn from the characters of the Bible. We have to follow Jesus’s teachings, and we have to prevent ourselves from doing the wrong things that the Bible’s characters had done in the past.

Having said that, I had strong SUPPORT after eating my dinner. For at least a week, I had not felt the SUPPORT, specifically during this time period. I don’t know the reasons, but I believe God was giving me the SUPPORT today because I had some bad dreams, and He gave me the SUPPORT to keep me afloat. Having listened to the music for quite some time, I had strong energy and enthusiasm, and I told myself, “James, I am done tonight, just enjoy the SUPPORT for the rest of the night, with God. Rejoice every moment.” And then I switched on and watched a movie, with the SUPPORT. After some 10 minutes of the movie, there was the scene of a naked woman. Then suddenly the strong SUPPORT was gone. What left behind was, I was still powerful, but the enthusiasm was gone. After this disappointing incident, I then switched off the movie, and the strong SUPPORT was with me again. What I observed was that the SUPPORT, I believe, was God’s given power, but there may be outside forces that can affect me using this power. My experience today tells me that, don’t give in to sin, no matter it is a big or a small one, sinning has, I believe, a negative effect to using the power, at times, to work for and with God.

Writing: The First Training 27.7.2018

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Are you learning to be a writer? Are you going to study for a journalism degree? Are you looking at various ways to learn how to write? I cannot answer these questions for you, but I can relate my own experiences for you as a reference.

About 30 days ago, I first heard the phrase in a dream talking about a company with its staff having shared a specific attribute, or gift. I did not understand the implications of this phrase at that time, except I thought God was telling me to find a job with a company that has staff with the above-mentioned attribute. But all along I had no idea where to start, and I just have to wait, waiting for God’s guidance and leading. Today finally the question was solved. It is a newspaper company. A newspaper company that is situated in the United States. Is it the will of God that I should apply for a job in this company? For the time being, I do not think so, as my English, as compared to a native person, is not that good and fluent.

Then what should I do, having known this still not-yet-fully-solved will of God? I then think of a usual way to let me get acquainted with this company, I can read first the memoir of the head of this company and another book that tells the same story but written by another author. However, the very surprising thing is that God is telling me not to read these two books, through the Fighting Heart incident, see The Fourth Fighting Heart System 24.7.2018, and a dream today. I believe He is warning me in some of the strongest terms not to read these two books. But if I have to learn of this company, why am I supposed not to read the books of the founder’s autobiographies? I think this is a wisdom I cannot comprehend for the time being, but all I need to do is to follow God’s leading and guidance, not to read these two books.

I think God is telling me to selectively read the news report from this newspaper. And I believe God is leading me to read the newspaper and learn from their writers’ writing vocabulary and style. As He is forbidding me to read the two books, I think from tomorrow on I will only focus on the news reporting from this newspaper, and learn from them. For other local news or other news reporting, I will just read only the headlines. This is the way I believe how God wills my training in writing, and I know I am going to learn from some of the best minds in this industry, and are in some ways related to me.

I believe that as I am somehow related to this newspaper company, my learning from their reporters will further sharpen and polish my competitive advantage: writing with SUPPORT. For the time being, I can only say that I am led to this right track, and I am really grateful that God leads me the way forward. To my readers: Have you found your mentors? Have you found the materials to follow to be a good writer? Believe in God and He will show you the way.

The Journey: Loving Relationship 26.7.2018

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Today I read about a fellow blogger’s acknowledgment of a loving relationship with God. Can you proudly tell everyone that you have a loving relationship with Him? At times when you occasionally do not feel the love of God, can you maintain your composure and admit that God’s best plan for you is in place?

God’s love for us is the biggest and best love that you can have in this world. Not only is it rewarding and satisfying, it is not a love that we can gain in this world. The love which is unconditional, and certainly not a transaction which is a normal phenomenon in our married adult’s life. However, I believe different people have different ways of feeling God’s love. For me, it is a reminder of my purpose and meaning of my life’s on earth: to work for and with God to achieve His will.

Somehow I always believe that working for and with God is one of the most important vocations in my life. Every time when I am in a down mode, whenever I am frustrated, and whenever I am about to lose faith, God will give me the feeling and the recognition of myself in His will, and tell me the following steps to work for and with Him, that is to do His will. Imagine when you are the son of a committing father, who comforts you when you have experienced a bad day in school and takes the effort to buy you a gift during this difficult period. This is what God has given me, every time and day when I am in a negative emotion, He will always give me a reassuring hug and give me a mental gift, the next minute, hour or day. He is telling me that, our love is not a transaction, and He will never leave me alone and will be there at the most critical moment. He will have a way to make me happy again, and His love is surely the best plan for me.

There should be times in our life in which we have doubts about God’s love during trials. Has God left me alone when I am sick with a disease? With the world laughing at me, has he abandoned me to face the world alone? For the previous five working days, I had felt God’s SUPPORT and Fighting Heart in these working mornings. However, I didn’t feel anything special today. Was he deserting me? No certainly not. He is always with me, whatever the difficult circumstances. And the fact that I didn’t feel anything special has a meaning, a wisdom that I cannot comprehend. The only way is to believe that it is God’s best plan for us. We just have to believe. And my frustration in the morning was rewarded with one of the best initial feelings while I was writing this blog in the afternoon. He gave me the strong feeling so that I could perform work for Him with love and caring although I was in difficult mental status. And today’s writing period was a time when I obviously felt a support when I was writing and has never happened before. And I believe this is another milestone for me. Will I feel the support when I write tomorrow? We will see.

I can proudly say that, whenever I am in a down mood and pressure that makes me worried, He will always, using His effort, to keep me afloat with various methods, and I strongly believe this is the best plan for me. I am starting to believe that I am at the happiest not because I am always facing an easy road ahead, but when every time I face difficulties in the narrow road ahead, He will “give me a lift”, by reminding me of his love and my role in His will.

If it is not the fact that I did not feel anything this morning, I would probably not have felt the love and encouragement when I was writing this blog post in the afternoon. His plan is really amazing. I felt His love, have you?

The Fourth Fighting Heart System 24.7.2018

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Yesterday I thought my 3rd episode of the Fighting Heart System would be the finale of the series, but because of some coincidental and strange scenarios today, I have a second thought and change my mind. I will continue with my happenings and experiences of the fighting heart and write them all on my blog.

This morning, for the 4th consecutive working days, I was inside the Fighting Heart System and I felt the SUPPORT. But today I finally felt the difference between the SUPPORT and the Fighting Heart (FH), inside the Fighting Heart System. The SUPPORT was clearly stronger than the FH, and during the time when I had it, I was very powerful and the enthusiasm was also very strong. And I had the energy and driving force to perform my work better.

Very coincidentally, I felt the SUPPORT and FH, at around 11:47am. That was the same time that I first started to feel the power yesterday. And because of this power that God gave me, I was able to perform my work with flair and confidence. I worked, worked, and worked, with the SUPPORT and FH, and was expecting to have a great day to jump over the final hurdle again with both the SUPPORT and FH at the final moment at 1:45pm, the time I normally finish my work. I was able to win the race yesterday, why couldn’t I do it today?

However, at around 12:34pm, I lost the power, again out of my own expectation. I initially hoped that I could work with the SUPPORT and FH until 1:45pm, but based on my previous experiences it generally wasn’t the case. In my first episode, I had a clear deadline, which was 1:30pm and I lost the power at 1:15pm. In the second episode, I didn’t have a clear deadline, but I knew I failed at the last minute at 19:59pm. Reflecting on today’s experience, was I doing God’s work up until 12:34pm, or I lost the battle before a potential deadline of 12:40pm or 12:45pm? If I had finished my work for God, that means 12:40pm or 12:45pm would then not be my target, today. On the other hand, if I was out-forced by the evil side, then that means that I actually lost the battle against Satan today.

Whatever the reasons, one thing is for certain, being in the Fighting Heart System is like being in a complex and complicated learning environment, a classroom that only consists of me and God. And I believe, He is overseeing my development and enables me to start and stop as He wills. I learn of His will through time in the FH System, and a possible explanation by dreams that He gives me on that same day. And along the way, I am motivated and given the driving force to perform my work better, which is both good for myself and my boss. What about tomorrow? We will see.

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