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The Fifth Fighting Heart System: 25.7.2018

Female runner tying her shoes preparing for a run

After the strong SUPPORT and Fighting Heart (FH) yesterday, today at 12:08pm I felt the SUPPORT and FH again. However, compared to the four previous days, today’s feeling was only a slight feeling of the given power. I did not feel any special feeling and enthusiasm, and the feeling was only mediocre. Regardless of the lesser degree of the feeling, I can still achieve the work before the deadline today, but, I believe, without God’s given power to me all along the journey. One thing that was worth the notice was that, subsequent to the initial lesser feeling at 12:08pm, at 12:41pm and 1:17pm I again felt the SUPPORT and FH. But on these two occasions again the feeling was also not as strong as yesterday. I believe that God was communicating His will to me, through the feeling, and in a way telling me the degree or extent of the strongness of the feeling to me. Obviously, yesterday’s feeling was much stronger than today. Was it that yesterday’s happenings represent, I believe, a much more important event that might happen in the future, than today’s happenings? Or that the time of the feelings today shows me the degree of significance in respect of the experiences today as compared to the stronger feeling yesterday? We will see tomorrow.

Just a recap on yesterday’s experience, see The Fourth Fighting Heart System 24.7.2018. My explanation is that, I believe, God is telling me that I cannot and must not, in the future, overdo things. I believe He is telling me to only fulfill His will, as He is constantly communicating with me through feelings and dreams, and do no more than that. Follow the rules, and not do something that is not required of Him. And I believe, He will give me the power to do for and with Him.

The Fourth Fighting Heart System 24.7.2018

Running men icon

Yesterday I thought my 3rd episode of the Fighting Heart System would be the finale of the series, but because of some coincidental and strange scenarios today, I have a second thought and change my mind. I will continue with my happenings and experiences of the fighting heart and write them all on my blog.

This morning, for the 4th consecutive working days, I was inside the Fighting Heart System and I felt the SUPPORT. But today I finally felt the difference between the SUPPORT and the Fighting Heart (FH), inside the Fighting Heart System. The SUPPORT was clearly stronger than the FH, and during the time when I had it, I was very powerful and the enthusiasm was also very strong. And I had the energy and driving force to perform my work better.

Very coincidentally, I felt the SUPPORT and FH, at around 11:47am. That was the same time that I first started to feel the power yesterday. And because of this power that God gave me, I was able to perform my work with flair and confidence. I worked, worked, and worked, with the SUPPORT and FH, and was expecting to have a great day to jump over the final hurdle again with both the SUPPORT and FH at the final moment at 1:45pm, the time I normally finish my work. I was able to win the race yesterday, why couldn’t I do it today?

However, at around 12:34pm, I lost the power, again out of my own expectation. I initially hoped that I could work with the SUPPORT and FH until 1:45pm, but based on my previous experiences it generally wasn’t the case. In my first episode, I had a clear deadline, which was 1:30pm and I lost the power at 1:15pm. In the second episode, I didn’t have a clear deadline, but I knew I failed at the last minute at 19:59pm. Reflecting on today’s experience, was I doing God’s work up until 12:34pm, or I lost the battle before a potential deadline of 12:40pm or 12:45pm? If I had finished my work for God, that means 12:40pm or 12:45pm would then not be my target, today. On the other hand, if I was out-forced by the evil side, then that means that I actually lost the battle against Satan today.

Whatever the reasons, one thing is for certain, being in the Fighting Heart System is like being in a complex and complicated learning environment, a classroom that only consists of me and God. And I believe, He is overseeing my development and enables me to start and stop as He wills. I learn of His will through time in the FH System, and a possible explanation by dreams that He gives me on that same day. And along the way, I am motivated and given the driving force to perform my work better, which is both good for myself and my boss. What about tomorrow? We will see.

The Third Fighting Heart System 23.7.2018

Sportswoman with arms up celebrating success

Thank you for reading and I am going to wrap up the series of the Fighting Heart System with the third and final episode.

I arrived at work at 9:30am today, as usual. Though I slept at around 1am this morning, I did not feel particularly tired this early morning. And while I worked until 11am, my mind was still fresh and my thinking was clear. But the pressure and tiredness arrived after 11am. At this period, I was so weak and uncomfortable that I told my supervisor that I couldn’t stand anymore. “The pressure was terrible, and I was very uncomfortable.” That’s what I told myself. At this time, I was working on typing the PO information into the Accounting System. And I could not imagine how I could sustain the next two hours.

However, the tide soon turned at around 11:47am. At this time I heard one of my colleagues talking something about “redundancy.” Then immediately I felt an initial SUPPORT. However, it was not a particularly strong feeling. Only after around 5 minutes, when I read my boss’s encouraging what’s app message, I felt a full recovery and I felt a strong SUPPORT and I knew that I was inside the fighting heart system.

Then for the next 30 minutes, while I was inside the fighting heart system and working towards the goal of finishing the assignment before 1:45pm today, I was very energetic and enthusiastic. I worked powerfully, and efficiently, and I was trying to work to my best effort. And all this while I kept telling myself, “Work to my best effort, with the SUPPORT and fighting heart, and don’t let other factors or Satan to affect my work. Remember, every second counts, because I am working for and with God.

The progress was great, but when I started to realize that while I was working towards the end, I suddenly had a flash of doubt. Could I finish the work on time? Could I keep myself in the best shape and having the SUPPORT and fighting heart until the end? My previous two fighting heart days ended by losing the mental battle in the end. And so I was anticipating and were ready for a loss, again. But today’s was a victory for me, a mental victory, with flair and confidence. I finished my PO work at 12:18pm and the final hurdle was jumped over very successfully, with both the SUPPORT and fighting heart. I then congratulated myself with a smile, and I instantly knew that it was a great victory. All gratitude should be to God, I believe, who gave me the SUPPORT and the fighting heart today.

And that was my final episode on the Fighting Heart System. I hope you enjoy reading these three extraordinary happenings, which were given and inspired, I believe, from God.

The Second Fighting Heart System: 21.7.2018

Tired male runner resting after training.

Today was the second day, after yesterday’s initial feeling inside the Fighting Heart System. This morning and early afternoon, I ate Dim Sum with my family somewhere near our place. It was an emotional lunch, as I listened to a music and the music enabled me to feel God’s love and SUPPORT. I then went home and took a nap. The dreams were supportive ones, and after that, I went to the airport to pick up my son and family, as they came back from holiday in Australia. Because there were not enough seats in my mum’s car, I had to take a train. The time was around 6pm, and I took an express train to go back home. All along the journey from the airport back home, I was filled with strong SUPPORT. I didn’t keep telling myself that, “I have to meet a deadline, or I have to gain every second” as I had yesterday. But similar to yesterday’s working power, I had the power today in the transport.

I would classify that I was inside the Fighting Heart System again because coincidentally, at around 19:59pm, while I was still in a strong mood and power, I lost the strength again. It was a very strange feeling, as well as a very scary one, and I guessed that some evil forces have out-forced me at the last minute, just before 8pm. This feeling of the lapse of power was the same as yesterday, but the difference was yesterday before the deadline I had a clear target. And yesterday I was working towards the deadline and lost the power 15 minutes before the time destination. Today I was having the SUPPORT and was energetic, but not consciously aware of the final target that I have to, I believe, work for and with God. And at the last moment, just before 8pm, I lost the mental battle, and it was a very disappointing result. But given that I had strong SUPPORT for around 2 hours, I thought I had done a great job already, for and with God.

The First Fighting Heart System: 20.7.2018

Runners training outdoors by the seaside

I had, and experienced the fighting heart today, this morning at work.

Although being a Friday, this morning was a fresh start for me. This was the initial feeling that I had when I started my work at 9:30am. My feeling was like today was the first day of the year, a new start and an expectation that things would start better than before. And it proved to be the case. A wonderful morning.

From 9:30am up to 1:15pm, I would say I was inside the Fighting Heart System. I was filled with energy and strength that I performed the work with utmost efficiency, and intensity, without listening to any music. I kept telling myself, “Well the deadline is coming, I have to perform to my best effort to try to gain every second.” And I knew that being an Accountant Assistant in my job, I have to meet deadline all the time, so I believe God knew it and helped me to reach the deadline by giving me the fighting heart, the perseverance and the strength to perform.

And more important is that I know God has entrusted me with the bags of gold, and He is my true boss, so I have to perform, for and with Him. Although today’s schedule was not tight, all along I was telling myself that I have to put in my best effort in every second, because I know God has high expectation on me.

With the fighting heart, at around 1pm, I then had a final target to meet, for today. I told my boss that I will finish the PO before 1:30pm. And then the final battle began, with around 30 minutes to finish my commitment, both to my boss and God. All along, I had the SUPPORT and fighting heart with me, but I had no idea how the final 30 minutes would go. Could I meet the target? That’s the motivation that I was facing for the final sprint in a 4×400 relay race I talked about yesterday.

For the first 15 minutes, I was able to work powerfully, as I knew that God was with me and I believe He gave me both the SUPPORT and fighting heart to continue. Run, run, run. Believe in yourself and God. Don’t let other outside factors or Satan to affect me. Then at the final moment, at 1:15pm, I suddenly felt the power was gone. I was instantly in a precarious position, without the power and energy that God had given me for the whole morning.

I do not know why, but given the hard work I had done in the morning, though with a lapse of power at the final minutes, I still could finish my work on time, by sending the total figure to my boss just before 1:30pm. In conclusion, though I slipped in the last minutes, I was still grateful that all along the journey this morning was a fruitful one and God was with me all the time. And I was honoured to have finished the work on time, that will remind me of today and many days ahead, “James, you have done a great job today.”

The True System: Successfulness 29.6.2018

bokeh light

There are times in which we may just give up on the things we are doing. We may be afraid and do not want to take risks. Sometimes we are disheartened. Other times we are content with our present situation. We may not feel comfortable to go the extra step to forgo our comfort zone. We may fear that in this evil age we may not be strong enough to uphold Jesus’s teachings. Or we fear that we are facing the world alone, after all.

I would like to focus my topic on being alone, because this is the scenario that I have been facing after I have first decided to face “the world system”, and continue doing so. By alone it means that, in this evil age, we are facing problems, troubles or challenges, mostly by ourselves. We may have friends, true friends that give us moments of “lift” in times of challenges. We may have family members who constantly remind us of their love to us. We may have our second half who keeps reminding us of the fact that he/she would never abandon us. And you may be fortunate enough to have a child who innocently continues to greet you with the words: “Papa, are you okay?”. But who can give the love that God can give you?

As compared to people who are homeless, or have lost their most treasured family members, I can say that I do have worries, but in a point of view much more fortunate than these people. However, living in this “world system”, I certainly feel the pressure around me, all the time. However, deep down, I know God is with me, and He is with me, in the most distressing period. I had sinned and had been naive and innocent before, but He never leaves me alone. I may want to cry because of other people’s deliberate abuse, but He sustains me. I may feel hopeless occasionally, but He gives me the feeling of assurance. And when I want to give up myself, He gives me courage. And most importantly, when I feel I am done, and want to stop using those “gifts” that He has given me to serve the world, He gives me the dreams and SUPPORT to keep me afloat, and the will to face the future.

I sometimes question myself on the issue of “for what”. What can I gain by doing good to “the world system”, in this world? All I have been getting are some negative reactions from people around me. Others laugh. They cheer. They make fun of me. But, not understanding me is not important, but more importantly is I understand them. They may be happy on the surface, they may seem successful in their look, but they do not know the true sources of happiness and successfulness. The relationship with God. The love He gives us. And the achievements and accomplishments that we gain and have when we work for and with Him.

The worldly wealth, power, status are normal people’s measurement of success. Their fame. And their source of pride. But they do not give you true happiness. Only when you know the truth, and have a relationship with God, and that He loves you, then will you feel the true happiness.

I had been through this journey before. I once was the best badminton player among schools in HK when I was young, and I had the experiences of being disheartened when I came out to face “the world system” alone. But I know I am not alone, after all. God is with me. He gives me strength and boldness to face the evil. He gives me sufficient to courageously face the world. And He communicates with me through the Bible and dreams to lead me along my journey. And most importantly, He gives us all, the grace of eternal life, which we all have to give thanks to Him.

For those younger readers or others who may not understand what I mean by “the true successfulness”, it is normal, and it takes time and most probably, and thankfully to Him, you will adjust. But just give yourself a try, pick up the Bible, and give yourself some space and time to build a relationship with God. Your whole life will be transformed, and blessed.

The Second Love System: 27.6.2018

Are you in love? Can you recall the previous moment when you had a strong lovely feeling? And the lovely feeling was so strong that moved you to act silly? Are you prepared to sacrifice because of love? Do you consider love and marriage as a transaction?

This morning before I woke up I had a dream. A nightmare as usual. A hopelessness dream. However, I knew God was with me, so I was not scared of any bad dreams that I had. Though I had to admit that I had sinned all the time, and so the dream did remind me that I had to be careful of sinning, and also I had to remind all the time to myself, that I had to repent. Admit my sin. Ask for forgiveness. And ask for mercy.

Just similar to a normal day, I did not have the expectation that I would feel the lovely feeling this morning. I was sitting on my office chair and working on the computer. It was an orderly morning and I didn’t feel any specific SUPPORT feeling. I was generally in a happy mood, but I considered that I was in the peace system. Then the feeling arrived around 11am. At that specific moment and for the following 30 minutes, I suddenly visualized myself in a loving scenario coupled with a strong, tender loving feeling. I visualized and felt that I was a young girl in love, and was about to take off my clothing to lose my virginity, for love. I was so shy, and so loved, to the extent that I did not have eye contact with the lover that was physically absent from this scenario.

And I was so touched and moved that I really enjoyed this period. It was one of the most wonderful, and loving feelings and I doubted that I had ever felt this loving feeling before, after around 10 years of marriage with my wife. The remarkable scenario was that the lover was not physically present in front of me, I could not visualize her, but the feeling flew inside my heart. I could not fully explain what had happened, but just that I believe it was God who gave me this feeling, which inspired me to write this post, and again had mercy on me and gave me this special experience.

Besides, I considered that I was in the “love system”, again, but today’s happening was totally different from my previous experience in the love and hate system. In the previous context, I was mentally wielding a power, with the SUPPORT, to overwhelmingly defeat the evil, I believe, all in my mind. Today I found out a different perspective, being in love and inside the love system is all about being passionate, giving away myself, in contrast to being inside the love system and fight a spiritual warfare. Inside this second love system, I was like willing to sacrifice myself, and give my most precious thing to the one I love, that was my wife.

Today’s experience was a forcefully loving feeling that moved me to give my precious thing, for love. If you had previously read my blog post, especially on 10th May 2018, I had made a “give all” decision to God, but on that occasion, I was not being “forced or moved” by the feeling that I had today. On that occasion, it was a conscious, and pure decision to act based on instinct, but today I was moved by love to act on this “give all” decision. All I could say was that I simply could not control myself, and I did not actually want to leave this lovely feeling, after all.

To me, love is not a transaction, but a give all or sacrifice. It is not only a loving and conscious decision to give myself to my lover, that is my wife, but also a forceful feeling which motivates, and leads me. Was it God who gave me this feeling to move me to act for Him, in the present and future context, to do His will?